Here is a twist- How often have you come across a state where you had no worry and yet you panicked… LoL. This is an absurd thought yet it happens and it happened to me! YES! You can panic when you have NO worry too.
verb : Feel or cause to feel anxious or troubled about actual or potential problems
noun : The state of being anxious and troubled over actual or potential problems.“
Worry is the constant mental movie of thoughts, emotions and images highlighting the vast illusionary gap between what is happening right Now and what you would like to happen in the future- which you think will not come to be LoL. for instance you have the resources (take happiness) to live fully in this moment, however you have an obsessive train of thoughts which keeps your focused in a state of wanting of something you don’t have, which you believe is a “must have” to be happy. This constant fixation on the future leads to chemical imbalances in the body that are harmful and lead to stress related disorders. The treatment of this dis-order is one of the biggest industry and we are all doing our bit to grow those industries as we continue to seek solutions outside.
I have seen my share of worry. living in a state of anxiety over the projects that I undertook. Wondering if the outcome of the project would meet everyone’s expectations. Will I get approval from others for the work I am doing. I have worried about how the future should be, would be etc . Thoughts of whether I have enough money, safety, security for myself and my family have been reasons for anxiety. You can add to this list.
I think worry is so common that it has been taken for granted and even accepted in a way that if you don’t have any worries then you are not living your life. Worry leads to stress- which is now described as a top cause for a string of serious health conditions. Here is something from the book biology of belief by Dr Bruce Lipton PhD “ We are constantly besieged by multitudes of unresolvable worries about our personal lives, our jobs, and our war-torn global community. Such worries do not threaten our immediate survival, but they nevertheless can activate the HPA axis, resulting in chronically elevated stress hormones.” Read more on HPA axis
In the same book he also states that “Between 75 and 90 percent of primary-care physician visits have stress as a major contributing factor. (Atkinson 2000)”
So we know that It’s a well established fact that worry is a silent killer. Would it not be a liberation when worry disappears? You would agree ,this is one place all should be. However it was a moment of shock, almost a panic, when I realized I was not worried !The panic moment for me was a convoluted aha moment so to say . I was watching a beautiful sun setting with a warm fuzzy feeling inside. I noticed the train of thoughts running through the mind with no particular impact nor any real interest. Suddenly out of the placid train I get this “Hey you are not worried” uh? I look around and make an effort to sense out the reason why this thought formed out of no- where and so prominently. The next moment I almost could sense panic setting as the thoughts started crowding in like fish in a fish tank which have just seen some food drop in from above.. How can I not be worried? Am I even alive? Does it mean I am not driven anymore to live with a “go get it” kind of attitude? Have I become complacent and a looser? Don’t I have any goals?
Oh yes the goals and the energy to live continues, What changes is that I continue doing all sorts of creative stuff, living life , have goals but the default setting changes from worry to happiness’s. I am no longer attached to the end result- each moment is alive and full ! The illusionary gap disappears
As I continued observing this dance of the thoughts the mere act of observation robbed them of their power, they had no more fuel to run along. This simple observation changed my state back to the serene presence that I was experiencing a few moments ago. It left me feeling energized because I knew that worry ceased to be my companion.
As I walked back making my way slowly home I realized that the momentary panic was a lesson, it was an insight from life . This is one of the profound aha moments similar to when I realized that “it is not necessary to think to be alive”. When worry falls away what is left is a light, airy space full of resourcefulness. This resourcefulness is inspiring and creative, it drives out fears and ushers in a new found courage. The courage to do what you really love doing and what you do brings about joy and peace.
So what are you waiting for?
- Observe your thoughts.
- Question your belief systems
- If you are worried dive deep to find out why?
- If you have made worry a part of your identity – remove the identity as you would remove a mask you have worn for a long time and have had enough of it.
- Get to the space of resourcefulness through silence, meditation, yoga and going within your self . Know that life has provided you with whatever resources you need, to live fully, in the present moment.
I wish that you too experience that momentary panic where you see your worry walk out on you. Have fun living in this space. Let me know how it goes by leaving a reply